9 years ago
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Answer me this...
Ok, loyal readers (both of you) tell me if this has ever happened to you? As tired, anxious, and stressed as we all are, we count on our sleep for just about everything. If you didn't sleep well, nothing seems to go right, am I right? So we nod off to sleep late in the evenings (early evenings for me sometimes), or even in the wee hours of the morning. And we dream. Not just normal dreams, but those that leave us SO ANGRY WITH OUR HUSBANDS that even if we don't remember the dream we're mad at him for days. This isn't something he's really done, but a stupid dream . It's clearly not real, not something he's actually done and we know it...and yet we are so hurt and so mad, there's no denying it. It's bad enough (for them) that we'll hang on to things they've done until our dying day, but we'll even hang on way too long to things they haven't done! Please tell me I'm not alone in this, has this happend to you?
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Cyndi... I had a best guy friend in college (whom I'm still friends with) who I had been friends with for 5 years at that point. He was my everything, but more importantly he was my anchor in my life.
One night I had a dream I was raped and got pregnant from it. (Lifetime Original drama-ish style. Tragic I know.) And in my dream, I felt all of these things like shame and embarrassment and a need to hide it all (things I's like to think I would NOT feel in my conscious state).
In my dream, I went to the one source I trusted at the time. I told him everything and waited for the wisdom I knew he had. He had nothing.
So when I asked him to say something, anything, he replied, "what do you want me to do?"
I remember in the dream, all my fake self emotions immediately left and my real self emotions were kicking in strong.
I WAS PISSED!!
I woke up hating him with the fire of a thousand suns, as Shakespeare says.
I didn't talk to him for a week. When he called me out on it, I told him.
"I know you're going to think I'm crazy, but I just feel like...."
Fast forward another 5 years, he just came into town 3 weeks ago and we still joke about it. He laughed, "remember when you hated me for something I never did?"
I assure you, I do.
Ok, you crack me up..."both of you"!
I think I only have two also!
Yes, I've had lots of dreams that leave me way beyond emotional and I carry them into my day, week...whatever...Being narcoleptic, you know we dream A LOT!
Cyndi! I have those all the time, except they are not about my being mad at him, they are about him just up and leaving me for no reason out of the middle of nowhere!!! And what makes it worse is he is always so cold about it, it is like he couldn't care less about the situation. I wake up nearly in tears, feeling so betrayed and denied. It is the strangest thing, and then I am upset for the rest of the day because I can't get it out of my head! So no, you aren't alone. Good to hear that I'm not either!
Miss you!
PS. Yes... aparently I have abandonment issues....
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